I work well under pressure. In fact, I always seem to do better on tests, projects, or anything when I have a hardcore cram session, trying to put in as much information in my small brain, or put forth tons of effort toward something physical.
Why is this? I don’t know, it’s just one of the many, yet interesting things about me.
Anyway, along with that project, I had a test today which I could not study for since I didn’t bring my book home over my four day weekend, nor did I even know we were going to have a test. Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, the test came.
I’d taken the test and was unsure of how I did. Since I have an IB teacher, she makes her test all short answer, fill in the blank, or true or false. She doesn’t believe in multiple choice so that makes her tests that much harder. Read more “Working Better Under Pressure? You Bet!”
This is probably the most personal post I could come up with, but it is also the most relevant. So here it goes, what is love really? What does it mean to feel loved, be loved?
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Recently I sat down at my regular writing routine and sadden by the discovery that I have yet to fully understand what it is love. And before anyone jumps to any conclusion, no this wasn’t coming up because of relationship, friendships, or family conflicts. Ironically, this topic came up while on the journey to fully understand and seek out a deeper relationship with a higher power.
You see I do believe that God, Buddah, Allah, The Universe, The All Powerful and Knowing Spirit, whatever you want to call this thing that is bigger and greater than I am, does love ALL people unconditionally. But I couldn’t come up with how that love would feel or look like, and began making excuses as why that love wouldn’t really happen to me. Read more “What does it mean to feel loved, be loved?”
Have I ever told you the story of how I use to be a people pleaser? Yes I did? Okay great, so we can skip that part of the story. But incase you have no clue what a people pleaser is here is my personal definition:
A People Pleaser: A person who is willing to sacrifice their own happiness for others’ enjoyment.
Cool: The kids slept in until shortly after 8 this morning.
Not Cool: There was a big mess waiting for me in Oliver’s room.
Cool: One of my closest friends came for a visit yesterday and spent the night.
Not Cool: She brought this cheddar flavored popcorn with her that, once popped, made the whole house smell like gym socks.
Cool: I played Dave’s newest addiction for the first time last night and discovered that I am not good at it.
Not Cool: It’s like crack, man. All I can think about is when I’ll be able to rock out again.
Really Not Cool: We discovered the reason behind Julia’s mystery fever: She’s got a throat infection. Again. We were supposed to pack up and take a trip north to my aunt and uncle’s house for more Christmas festivities this weekend, but with Julia sick that’s looking doubtful.
Every Sunday night I’m a total schizo. Part of me feels sad that I wont be spending the day with the kids tomorrow and the other part is looking forward to going to the office and doing the professional person thing. Depending on the Sunday, one part or the other may dominate but it’s never fully one way or the other.
It is that time of year again- the seasons are changing and the fall wardrobe is about to come out from storage. Here is my biggest issue, I hold on to things that are dirty, tired, rundown, and have seen better days.
That is right, I hold on to items that simple do not make me feel good anymore. The same way I insist on riding my old car that is economical anymore. My polish friend calculated for the fuel usage and I know for sure, my car is too expensive to drive around. (Sign)
The same with cloths. If you are anything like I am, tossing out clothes, accessories and purses is a really difficult task. There are memories attached to those skin jeans that haven’t fit it five years. Those stained shirts can be covered by a sweater, right?
I cling to my existing wardrobe like I will never buy a new pair of shoes again. I simply cannot do that anymore. The challenge is on! I am in pursuit in making room for more things to come. Let’s be honest, I don’t even have the closet space to keep all the clothes that I have now. So here is what I am doing: I am emptying out my closet only keep clothes that make me feel good. A great rule of thumb that I hear recently is, if you wouldn’t buy it in a store, then toss it out.
Paraben free products have become a huge interest of mine, and should be one of yours as well. After learning the statistics and facts about nasty preservatives (such parabens) that are found in make-up, hair care, and other everyday products, I have devoted time and energy in finding the best natural products on the market. One of my all time favorite paraben free brands is Love & Toast. The skin care and fragrance line by Margot Elena is such a luxury product at a drugstore price. All of Margot Elena exclude pararbens, sulfates, mineral oil (BAD BAD BAD for you), and synthetic coloring.
I am a big believer that you can manifest anything. Read the Alchemist, or the Help, and learn what I mean in detail. But in short, you can create whatever you are thinking. For instance, when you are in a bad mood, don’t you ever notice how many crazy maniacs you attract that day? Or when you are smiling and happy, how many wonderful opportunities are presented. Precisely, this is what I mean, what ever you are thinking and believing in, it will in some way materialize. Even big extravagant desires. Here is an example: